Sometimes things don’t work out and we have to make some tough choices. Its not fun and it isn’t easy and sometimes it hurts our friends and we don’t mean to but it does hurt. I was recently in a situation where I was hurt but can totally sympathize because I KNOW my friend did not want to hurt my feelings in any way. Or hurt me in any way. And thats what ultimately breaks my heart. We are both left sad!
So now I’m like roommate less and I have two weeks or a week to come up with rent and I have no idea how thats going to happen. NO FREAKING CLUE. I do however have FAITH that it will! Faith of even a mustard seed can move mountains and y’all know if I can have faith that a panhandler is going to do something good with $90 I DIDN’T have to give but gave anyway then yea I’m sure it will work out. I am stressed to my limit. I am relying on medication and therapy to get by and I hate it. I am utterly exhausted at the end of the day. My bones ache. My HEART aches.
The decision remains the same.